I Was/I Am

About This Movie

I Was/I Am is a fascinating exploration of identity, shifting between the traditional and the rebellious. Shot in 16 mm, it contrasts the delicate portrayal of femininity with a raw, gritty transformation into a motorcycle dyke. The pacing feels almost meditative, creating a space to reflect on the fluidity of gender and the societal constraints attached to it. Hammer's personal performance is compelling, embodying vulnerability and strength in equal measure. The practical effects are minimal but effective, serving the narrative rather than overshadowing it. This film holds a distinct place in queer cinema history, marking Hammer's early experimentation with form and identity, making it a significant piece for any serious collector's archive.

This film stands out in Barbara Hammer's early work as one of her initial forays into 16 mm filmmaking, capturing the essence of gender fluidity. Originally produced in a limited run, it’s not easy to find, which heightens interest among collectors who appreciate its historical context. Its scarcity and significance make it a gem for those delving into the evolution of queer representation on screen.